my haiku

malamig na 'pag
umaga, malapit na
kita makita

(the cold fall mornings
mean i will see you soon in
seventy-one days)


aprilrose

she is the "you"

for Iniang

(loving you without condition)
I never knew there could be love like this.
I never knew a girl I dream could exist.
I thought I could never be healed
you have opened the palace to my heart
and broken the seal.

I just want to show you what you've done for me.

You've changed me from having the internal heart bleed.
You killed the plant and soiled the seed.
I've always wanted someone, something like you.
Nowadays people are all living a lie who knows whats the truth.
Your love is just to good if you asked me to give my life I would.

You're my everything
I will do the same for you and not let your heart hurt or sting.
And now with emotion and as i cry to you I will sing.

fr Christopher Johnson

photograpHER. not me.

i am experiencing uneasiness and anxiousness whenever you have a photoshoot... can you give me something i can take so it will go away?

Rx
TRUST
1 OD x forever

(I'll be compliant and adherent..)

nothing compares to the simple pleasure of a bike ride

When the spirits are low, when the day appears dark, when everything becomes monotonous, when hope hardly seems worth having, just mount a bicycle and go out for a spin down the road, without thought on anything but the ride you are taking...

on to moving forward...

I'm so glad i got to talk to kuya Chris.. it's surprising that he asked me about my relationship one day.. and he ended up making me realize what im actually feeling.. He even made a poem about it:

Love Reassessed (When we were young) We met as kids and it was great we always spent time together out until it was late. You were my first in everything and that cant change. I know you think I want to hurt you and and this is strange. I dont want you to think I was playing mind games. But its just that I dont love you more than a friend and I'm sorry, I know its not the same. I don't know how to express to you in words my thoughts and feelings and dont worry its not my heart that someone is stealing. I want you to know that I've always loved you. This is something I never planned to do. I've known you like forever so to lose you as a friend, i hope that happens never. I can imagine your hurting and pain inside I always loved you and never lied.

APRIL = LIAR
liar may be written in my name.. but i was never a liar about my love for you..

laugh. smile.

Our class rep once told me to look for a guy who can make you laugh... a funny and fun guy.. one who can just make you remember how he makes you feel, no matter what he says or does.. one whom your laugh or smile makes him smile.

stuck

Just found out that Matt Nathanson is in town.. (MOD Club Theatre along College St, few blocks away from school) I wanna see him perform live.. but i have osteoporosis.. Osteoporosis homework to work on, that is.. I've let Jabbawockeez pass too, and now Matt.. who's next? Jason Mraz? :(